Get me out of my mind

The Great Shadow Of Fear. The Even Greater Abyss That Is Hatred.

Tue, 19 Feb 2013 02:20:12 -0500

Im scared. again.

to death. yes im standing here, no tears, but no smile.

I talked to you. MY “X” the first person that told me that loved me.

the first person I believed in.

The person that made me realize that everyone lies.

every single person, Lies.

I talked to you.

& Iwasnt dead cold & defensive like when we spoke after you chose him.

i tried to be as it was before, before every thing, before him, before us.

like friends

it hitted me.

“friends”

that was what we were supposed to be, after “us”.

then it hitted me harder, the “feeling”

in my stomach, no, not butterflies, but anger, fear.

I trusted you. I told myself I have had forgiven you.
but I havent, I tried, & I try.

but i know that If I cross one day with him. I would bleed my knuckles on his face.

for what he did to me, for what he did to you.

you came, & made a better version of me.

but when everything fell down.

I rotted, & I there was nothing good left in me.

you ruined me.

now I dont trust, I dont want to love, I am paranoic.

it hurts, I hate. & I love.

now Im with some one. I’ve gotten over you.
I love her, yes I do.
but I cannot trust in love anymore.

I am not a good person anymore.

& I havent spoken about how hurt I have been.

about how bad I had felt

about how much hatred I’ve got.

memories flash backs, & I dont feel nostalgia, I dont feel happiness.

I feel sick. I was a Fool. I was tricked & fooled.

a Fool.

I dont want you back. I want my soul back, I want my happiness back.

I want everything you destroyed back.

now Im scared that she will leave me, that she doesnt love me, that she lies to me, that she choses some one elses over me. like every one elses, like you.

im scared, im terrified.

I refuse to believe.

I know what is like to believe & it makes me wanna scream.

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houch:

If Mr Brightside ever starts playing, and you don’t stop everything you’re doing and sing at the top of your lungs, you aren’t living life properly.

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hormonalteenblogger: touchedyourtralala: this is my human....

Fri, 17 Feb 2012 11:37:59 -0500

hormonalteenblogger:

touchedyourtralala:

this is my human. when human is fussy, i just pet it like this.

as you can see, human is calm.

omg ASDFGHJK AW

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Fri, 17 Feb 2012 11:36:59 -0500

Lets make this girl the most reblogged picture on tumblr

Sun, 05 Feb 2012 15:39:44 -0500

ifelthope: best song ever

Fri, 27 Jan 2012 09:46:14 -0500

ifelthope:

best song ever

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hatredandwarmsentimentsxvx: janedoexvx: supppang: In his five...

Thu, 24 Nov 2011 18:22:37 -0500

hatredandwarmsentimentsxvx:

janedoexvx:

supppang:

In his five short weeks of life, Orbit hasn’t met many other owls.

So he isn’t at all worried that his new best friend doesn’t hoot back.

The orphaned chick is perfectly content in the company of the stuffed bird perched next to him and is never far from his side.

Orbit, a common barn owl, was given the toy by Lyndsey Wood, his carer at Folly Farm, near Narberth in West Wales.

She said: ‘A friend suggested that I find something like a toy owl to stop Orbit feeling lonely.

‘I thought he might try to eat it, but he just cuddles up to it and goes to sleep.’

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Orbit is the cutest owl and I will never go without reblogging this.